dearest baby

Baby had just passed away this morning.. next to pearl, he's the one i dote on most. when i looked at his wife, girl girl, she look kinda lost and lonely. me too.. i feel so empty inside..

Can he don't die?
Can i don't bury him?
Can he come back to me?
Can i keep him by my side?
Can i wax him like what House of Wax did?
How can he just leave like that? he's got a pregnant wife..

i kept asking myself these.. he should take up all the responsibility of caring for his wife and kids. not letting his kids born into this world fatherless! i hope he'll run to me when im giving him his favourite treat - strawberry biscuit. but he didn't; i kept crying and crying and crying after burying him.. i can't control my emotions nor do i bother to control.

dad joked that i didn't ask Baby to wake up, that's why he is 'sleeping' now. how i wish i could really ask him to wake up then i won't feel so terrible. i also wish that i can have a good rest and when i wake up, i'll realise it's all just a dream.

BUT! is all this possible? nonoNONonooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss him so much he has been such a dear to me... mummy told me he'll reincarnate and be reborn as girl girl's kid. yup i chose to believe mummy... that's the best option to convince and calm myself down. now he's suddenly gone making us all tearing for him..

Baby: you will always be in our hearts. you've been very obedient and i've never regret doting on you. hope you will reincarnate soon and come into my family again.

we miss you~